It doesn’t seem that long ago that I had to pull the boy hiding behind me into the grocery store. Lan would hide behind my legs and didn’t dare look forward or at the people inside.
Yet, Friday night at the last home game of the season, this same boy now tall and lanky talked with the other teenagers, danced on the side lines and mingled quite energetically with the marching band.
My baby boy isn’t quite so little any more.
It isn’t just his size I’m referring to as he teeters just a bit shy of six feet tall. His confidence has grown immensely. He’s looking for people he knows in any crowd so he can wave or speak to them. He mingles enthusiastically at the football game not at all deterred by the people. Instead of hiding behind me he is more likely walking away as quickly as possible to keep me from cramping his style.
The small trembling kid once so easily startled, shy and afraid stands tall, asks questions and wants to have is voice heard.
Lan seeks the independence his brother enjoys and is finding a confidence all his own.
He challenged one of his classmates in band and is now third chair with his eye on the second. The young boy who once hated school now actually cares about his grades and takes pride in doing well.
I’m not quite sure what happened and when but my baby boy has grown.
And he’s not the only one.
I’ve grown more trusting in God’s ability to handle whatever hiccups come our way. I’ve grown more confident in Lan’s abilities as he takes it upon himself to initiate more of his school work without prompting from me or my husband.
I’ve grown out of the need to have my hand on everything. I can trust others to get the job done and if it isn’t the way I would have done it that’s fine too.
I’ve become less anxious as I’ve seen that the worst case scenario rarely happens.
I’ve grown more thankful as God continues to answer prayers for good breaks, good friends and faithfully provides opportunities I could never have come up with on my own.
Sometimes the most growth occurs when it appears that nothing is happening at all.
A lot of times we pray for things and think that nothing is changing. Everything looks the same. We wait for the answers we have hoped and prayed for to manifest. Sometimes we wait so long it feels like God has forgotten us.
But God is faithful.
I have found the answers I’ve sought in unexpected people, places and things. God has allowed me to grow in my expectations of Him. I can now recognize the unconventional ways in which God has answered some of my prayers.
Lan has grown taller, stronger and more confident. I like to think something has “clicked” as he tackles more challenges with determination instead of fear.
I’ve grown mentally tougher and spiritually stronger as our walk along the spectrum has forced us to enlarge our vision and look for what “can be” instead of settling for “what is.”
We’ve still got a ways to grow both him and me, but thankfully, we are never alone in our journey.
God’s got us.
And for that, I am very, very grateful.
“But grow in grace, and [in] the knowledge of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. To him [be] glory both now and for ever. Amen” 2 Peter 3:18 KJV
4 thoughts on “Growth Spurt!”
I’m so proud of Lan! Hats off to you too, as you made sacrifices to ensure that both boys were given every opportunity in life to succeed. Your blogs about you and Lan, give me hope with my child who at this point seems to care nothing about school. Even though, his grades are good, it’s like he puts forth little to no effort at all. He lacks motivation, and I just recently figured out, I can only fuss but so much. I’ve given it to my God. Now, I’ll sit back and watch him work. Again, thanks for sharing.
God has taught me a lot. Most of all to give my children over to Him. We pray over them continually…our prayers so availeth much! Never lose hope!!!
Beautiful! I’m in tears. So proud of you both. KP
Thanks KP, as always we are a work in progress but God is good! Peace and love to you!