Love Is Patient…

Patience is one of those things I used to pray for.

My journey along the autism spectrum definitely tried my patience.

That first diagnosis of pervasive non-developmental disorder exacerbated my lack of patience. When my two-year-old wasn’t developing quite as he should, the psychiatrist’s verdict was wait and see.

Wait and see!?

I didn’t handle that very well.

My compulsion and desperation to “fix” things left me frustrated and anxious.

Trying to juggle our autism purgatory in the midst of everything else going on at the time stripped me of what little patience I did have.

I loved my family, yet my ever growing impatience shortchanged my efforts to show the love choked inside of me.

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.” I Corinthians 13:4 NIV

Love is Patient B is for Blessed God autism and me devotional 2 2-2016I was neither patient nor kind.

I envied those who didn’t have my particular menagerie of issues, issues that sprang up rather suddenly and without warning.

Yet, God in His mercy made me stronger by forcing me through my fires and leaving me little choice but to learn patience.

Lesson after lesson.

I slowly stopped allowing circumstances to hold me hostage. I eventually learned to stop working toward happiness and to instead relax a little and receive God’s joy.

Time spent waiting for my miracles taught me every situation can be viewed any number of ways. I also learned there are always circumstances we are oblivious of when we are oh so quick to judge others.

Eventually, empathy and compassion grew in me as well.

It was not easy getting to this point.

Neither was it quick.

As our Father is patient with me, I know I should exhibit this trait toward others.

I am not always successful.

But, at least now, I try.

I am learning to recognize my own limitations and allow room for God to do the rest.

In His timing.

Patience keeps us from allowing the unexpected to knock us down and out.

Patience allows us to praise God for the smallest of blessings despite the bigger picture…

My journey along this autism adventure forces me to take a hard look at myself.

I don’t always like what I see.

Love is Patient B is for Blessed God autism and me devotional 3 2-2016Love is patient. Love is kind.

Hopefully, I can become these things as well…

My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing. James 1:2-4 NKJV

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6 thoughts on “Love Is Patient…”

  1. Oh Lilka, I can only say I know and I relate. And this: ‘…I slowly stopped allowing circumstances to hold me hostage…’ This is what I am really trying to do every day, I am so tired of being derailed and letting the bad days send me off into energy-zapping black holes. Every day I am there, with you, praying for the grace, mercy and yes patience of the Lord to bring me back to lessons learned and that every day brings another step forward. Somehow. God bless you, and thank you so much for this, you bring me great encouragement ❤

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  2. On a personal note. You Lilka are a Blessing to many, especially me, one would have never known what you were going through so much inside, because GOD had you, and blessed you to be a blessing to others. THANK YOU so much for pushing to further my education and not wait another 5years until my children were the age I felt they should be. You were and still is a spiritual blessing to me and I appreciate you for all that you did. Thanks again for encouraging me when you going through so much inside. Takasha

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    1. Thanks so much for your kind words! And who would have thought years later you would be one of the main people looking after my child once he reached high school and especially this school year with marching band! God always has a plan! Our encounters with people are never coincidence. Peace and Love to you! 🙂

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